Do you ever think that the songs you have in your head reflect what you're thinking/feeling? It might just be... I don't know.

Evanescence- Call Me When You're Sober

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I've written a poem, that I think sums up how people are, I don't know. I just thought I'd share (I didn't want to put another deviation up).

Suspicion
Emptiness
The humdrum’s just begun.

Glances
Gazes
The endless Monday morning glum.

You look from person to person,
Seeing if there’s something they lack.
But you end up looking through a window,
Where only your own reflection stares back.

You see the high flyer,
The train’s soundtrack is their phone.
You see the low-life scumbag,
Rotten, stinking, left alone.

Wariness
Loneliness
Your audience awaits.

They watch with glee
Waiting waiting
For entertaining mistakes.

The teenage mother,
Who, in desperation, will swear.
Only to be met,
By an old woman’s disdain-filled stare.

Just another journey,
Just another train.
Stereotypes fulfilled,
It isn’t just the destination that’s the same.

Random, I know... but still.

By the way, I'm well, I did really well in my exams, so I'm happy and am just enjoying myself. Hope everything's ok with you all...

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I don't know. What on earth am I like? People describe me in different ways, and I don't know what to believe. So, I thought I'd let you see what I think I believe.

As much as this sounds 'emo', I'm really not. I just can't stop sounding like one in my poems. So, I'm sorry.

If I say these beauty-laced words enough,
Then, them, I might start to believe.
A fallen angel, a broken butterfly,
Only, it’s my heart that’s deceived.

If I say these hate-laced words enough,
Again, them, I’ll start to believe.
Bitch, unworthy, a hate-fuelled disaster,
Only, it’s my tears that make it hard to deceive.

If I say these evocative words,
Them, will you believe?
Or would you rather, I called myself insecure,
And then you wouldn’t be deceived?

Don't worry, now I've said it, I'm getting over it. And before you say it, it is the cry of the youth!

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Hello,

I thought an explanation is needed for some random reason. I haven't suddenly had a creative burst, rather, I haven't been feeling great, and thus, I've put some older poetry up.

I'm going to try and be getting on with my work in the next couple of weeks so, don't be getting scared if I go all quiet.

Your comments, favourites, critiques and general support are what keeps me writing and thinking that I've not gone totally insane with my rants...

So thank you...

I hope you all are ok...

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P.S. Photography is not my strong point (as you can see from my gallery), but my dear friends and have a great talent...

In addition to this (sounds like I'm writing an essay), you all have great talent, and if I had to showcase it all, I'd be here all day, so I thought I'd tell you to look at my watch list...

Love always...

Well...

A few days ago someone asked me when my next journal would be, seeing as I haven't written one since September...
I replied, saying that I didn't know what people wanted to know about my life...

So lets just say this problem is solved in some ways . Thanks to [link] I have found a way to get out of working... and a way to let you know about me, well, my music taste in particular...

So... here it is... the first line or so of the songs that I have on random play, and lets see if your taste is anything like mine. Probably not, but still! (The clues are in italics if you can't get it).

1) Where is the moment we needed the most? You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost. When everything's not going well...

2) Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry, you don't know how lovely you are. I had to find you, tell you I need you, tell you I set you apart. By Coldplay

3) Hold on, to me love. You know I can't stay long. All I wanted to say, was I love you and I'm not afraid. Can you hear me? Can you feel me in your arms? The last...

4) My life is brilliant, my love is pure. I saw an angel, of that I'm sure. One of the best compliments

5) It wasn't supposed to be like this, another dose of unhappiness. I gave it all, and managed to get shot down yet again. So, I got drunk... I can't think of anything

6) Dear, I fear, we're facing a problem. You love me no longer, I know... A fool in love?

7) Please don't go crazy if I tell you the truth. No, you dont know what happened and you never will... Another How To column

8) How many times, do I have to try to tell you, that I'm sorry for the things I've done. And when I start to tell you, that's when you have to tell me 'Hey, this sort of trouble's only just begun'. A question...

9) Save some face, you know you've only got one. Change your ways, while your young. Boy, one day you'll be a man. Oh, girl, he'll help you understand... ...

10) Spend all your time waiting, for a second chance, for a break that would make it ok. There's always some reason, to feel not good enough, and it's hard at the end of the day... Sweet innocent, what most girls like to think of themselves as...

I would go on... but I don't think typing out hundreds and hundreds of song lyrics would be a good idea.... I need to put some more on, but still...

Thank you for reading this and if you actually do want to know anything about my life, then ask.

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